I am still alive
You all probably wonder what is happening? Life continues to be very busy. We decided to plant a bigger garden this year plus start some asparagus and strawberry plants. Then we decided to go ahead and plant 1000 strawberry plants and start a pick your own patch. Probably will also offer some already picked as well. We had a late frost and had to replant some things. I took a few days and headed to Lancaster County for some time with family and friends. Keeping 6 children occupied in a good way seems to be a full time job!!
Last but not least, I am cutting back and fully intending to get off my medication for my depression. It isn't easy and I am getting tired of it. Each time I cut back I go through this difficult time of withdrawal and learning how to deal with life in a new way. I am grateful for the medication's help earlier but it is a pain to get off of. I think a lot of people just come to accept that they will be on it the rest of their life especially when they have been on as much as I have. But it really only keeps you numbed and addicted (dare I use such a strong word) I am not saying that you shouldn't ever use medication. I only now am realizing how used to it your body becomes and how hard it is to get off. I also want to say that if you don't have someone that can walk with you and help you find your way through the getting off, you probably shouldn't try it. It can be very overwhelming but I am grateful that I have found someone that truly has a balanced approach to life and is a genuine," sold out to God" Christian. We need more people like this one. Someone that truly cares about you and will help you chart new waters and learn how to deal with life in a Christlike way and also help you find healing.
I hope that I can write a little more frequently... I guess time will tell. It sure has helped to get bloglines to help me keep track of those blogs that I like to read. And maybe that will help me have more time to keep updating my own blog. Haven't learned how to put on pictures yet...that will be my next challenge.
Last but not least, I am cutting back and fully intending to get off my medication for my depression. It isn't easy and I am getting tired of it. Each time I cut back I go through this difficult time of withdrawal and learning how to deal with life in a new way. I am grateful for the medication's help earlier but it is a pain to get off of. I think a lot of people just come to accept that they will be on it the rest of their life especially when they have been on as much as I have. But it really only keeps you numbed and addicted (dare I use such a strong word) I am not saying that you shouldn't ever use medication. I only now am realizing how used to it your body becomes and how hard it is to get off. I also want to say that if you don't have someone that can walk with you and help you find your way through the getting off, you probably shouldn't try it. It can be very overwhelming but I am grateful that I have found someone that truly has a balanced approach to life and is a genuine," sold out to God" Christian. We need more people like this one. Someone that truly cares about you and will help you chart new waters and learn how to deal with life in a Christlike way and also help you find healing.
I hope that I can write a little more frequently... I guess time will tell. It sure has helped to get bloglines to help me keep track of those blogs that I like to read. And maybe that will help me have more time to keep updating my own blog. Haven't learned how to put on pictures yet...that will be my next challenge.
posted by jump4joy @ 9:50 PM
2 Comments:
At June 16, 2006 2:59 PM,
Basketcollector said…
I am still so glad we found each other and Im praying all goes well that you can stay OFF all your meds for good too!
PLease keep me posted and don't hesitate to bother me for specific prayers if you feel like its going rough.....I've been there and its NOT fun at all....
At June 23, 2006 2:32 PM,
Destination...Gloryland! said…
I admit that i don't know what it is like to ween off antidepressants, but I do know what it is like to ween off asthma meds each fall. It is awful and I am amazed each time how addicted my body is to the stuff.
May God grant you an extra measure of grace, strength adn perseverance during this time.
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