depression

I have struggled with major depression the last 3-4 years. I have been hospitalized once and on several differant kinds of medication. Depression is a complex thing and sometimes not very well understood. One thing the depressed person needs is to have someone that cares about them and knows how to help them process and sort through the things that are going on. Mine has been a combination of things. Inbalanced hormones has played a part in the depression.... Also playing into the picture was alot of emotional turmoil that I was in about some life issues. These things are not always easily resolved. Depression upsets the life of a person in many ways...for me there was and still is certain things that I could do at one time and have not been able to do since depression. One thing is sewing...it used to be something I really enjoyed doing and now I can hardly bring myself to sew. I have had someone else helping me out in this area. I can think more about sewing than I could at one time so I am hoping we are moving in the right direction with it. Someone told me that with time it will come back. Another big thing in my journey with depression was the accident of our girl, which I will write about another time. It was a very traumatic time and it made the depression worse. It was after that I landed in the hospital afraid I would do something bad to the ones I loved. I couldn't handle daily life anymore. Medication helps but you also need to get at the root of things so I started counseling more in earnest...I had done some before but it became apparent that there were things that were crippling me up so to speak and it needed to be addressed. We have a dedicated pastor and one that cares deeply for hurting people and so with his help and guidance we struggled on. I had stuffed so many things inside and now they were all screaming to be heard and I didn't know how to keep going. I just wanted to die alot of the time. The real person...the one that wanted Jesus and to do what was right seemed to hide all the time, seemed to be imprisoned. I had to let Jesus come in and slowly but surely help me untangle the inward mess. I still am in the process but I am getting closer to freedom all the time. Praise the Lord. Maybe more later on this subject....